River Gateway

MONDAY! I’m so tired physically! I’m not sure why, but I’m especially tired today. I just woke up this morning, wondering when this cycle is going to be over. When this job is going to no longer serve me. I feel and sense that it no longer does. I had so many experiences...more on that later...but I really feel as though I’ve moved on from the job but it hasn’t physically manifested yet and I’m wondering if this means I’m not doing enough to change.
I have received multiple messages of what must be done. Right now I am in a stage of transitioning. I have experienced much of this and it’s just that the physical takes a bit of time to follow. I will tell you what happened yesterday.
My Twin Flame and I took a hike in the woods. It was so amazing. The energies were so perfect, pure, smooth, and heightened. I felt like I was in a vortex of energy. It was amazing. We sat on a bridge and just watched the water pass under our feet. It was so relaxing and necessary for the cleansing. Beautiful!
Afterwards we walked further through the woods and just made our own path. Everything was in divine order, we were just existing and enjoying nature and pure being. There was a moment when we were crossing over one of the many rivers. I looked into the water and I just felt this need to pause. I thought “This river is full of energy and crossing this river is like crossing through a gateway.” I thought about how running water is super-charged and imagined myself passing through a light gateway. Then I closed my eyes and I felt myself in the presence of the many and the essence of the river and the spirit of nature. They were nature beings I suppose. I felt the tears of joy coming down my cheeks. I felt myself being lifted up and also light coming through my crown chakra. I felt this overwhelming joy. I was being enveloped by light and they told me that I was meant to have come to their forest. I was meant to be there, that it was all happening in divine timing and that I needed to have faith. They told me that I was needed there. They told me that I was “exactly where I needed to be.” They were basically just reassuring and cleansing me of any doubt or negativity. My mind was going, but I was rooted in place and I was basking in this glow. It was so powerful, I felt as though I was no longer in my body, the body felt very heavy and distant. Yet I was still in it. I experienced it in the body, and yet I would describe it as an out-of-body experience. I felt very, very empowered. I’m not sure how long it lasted, but my eyes opened by themselves and I was just told to walk and continue.
My body was moving, but I was not guiding it. I was slowly returning back, but my eyes had already opened and my body had already begun to move. I was trying to hang onto that experience and not lose it.
I think that’s why I felt the need to not go to work today. I feel as though I have moved on, but the body continues to go to work. It’s interesting. I can’t say I was resistant to it, because it’s not the same. It’s not the same kind of feeling b/c it almost feels on the surface and not how I really feel. Whereas before, I did feel that it mattered. I do not feel as though it “matters” I just notice there is an inbetween. In other words, the body is acting in the old and the spirit is acting in the new and somewhere between is the mind. It hasn’t completely followed because it is still thinking it needs to go to work, make money, etc. The inner knowing is calm and at peace and I feel very much connected to that infinite peace. Strange right?
I can’t say it’s strange either, the strange is still on the surface and does not really affect me. I can’t really describe it.
I do know that I am kind of operating from the space in between. I have not yet received guidance on what the physical manifestation of all of this will be, however I feel the change is approaching. I did not know what I will be guided to do, however I did receive this message. The Message was from the cards that BDivine read. She said that it is the time for change, that you would need to let go and to cut ties, but that all I needed to do was to cut ties from within and then this would open up the pathway. Whatever way she said this exactly, I began to cry and I knew this to be the truth and this to be the divine guidance. Once I have truly cut ties emotionally, mentally, then it can finally make way for the physical.
This cutting of ties has been going on for some time. I have already lost that roller coaster emotion based on what is happening with my job. I no longer have that. I am not invested in it. When I leave, I do not think about it or worry about it. I just have no desire. She also said, the more I think about it, the more I try to work out what is going to happen and how it is going to unfold, the more energy I am putting towards it. I started doing that this morning, trying to figure out what my next move is going to be. Don’t buy into that. You only need FAITH. That is all. You may have the FAITH that everything is going to work out in divine timing.
Now connecting back to my experience in the woods, they were there to comfort and reassure you. Everything is as it should be. You are there for that message, you are there for many more. You are connected and will always be connected.

Asking For Help

It's been a very long time since I've felt guided to post something. I've really come a long way, in the sense that I've had many awakenings since my last post. There are many others experiencing these energy shifts and having incredible experiences. Beautiful!
Well, I'd like to return with a post about asking for Help. I've been writing throughout the entire experience, and I will most likely post most of these thoughts and musings here, as I am guided to.
Anyway, back to asking for HELP. This seems so simple, but so often we forget that we have this resource at our fingertips. The infinite is there to help. You are the infinite, and so asking for help from your higher self, and from the one source, is like asking for Help from your future self who can look back and guide you through your steps.
I think often we seek Help from "teachers" and people who have given themselves this label. Some are offering valuable guidance, but I can't stress enough the importance of seeking Truth within. If you are not sure what this means for You, then ASK for HELP. I promise you, there is nothing wrong with admitting that you are not sure how to find growth and insight into the Truth. Too often we ask others for advice, we read other's experiences, we compare ourselves to those we look up to.
There is nothing wrong with this, please don't get me wrong, I'm not discounting this. Yet seeking outside yourself will only bring you so far, and you won't reach that inner peace and connect with Source without Asking from within. How do you do this? It doesn't matter where you are, just ASK, out-loud, write it down on a piece of paper, sing it out, or just close your eyes and think it. "Please help me reach my highest vibration." "Help me grow to my greatest potential." Ask with your purest, most love-filled intentions.
The honest beautiful truth is that we are the only ones experiencing this unique life, with it's own challenges and joys. So no one can really tell you what to expect in your growth. I'm strictly talking about the internal, (the one source). 
I can say honestly from experience that you do not need to change ANYthing in your outer world in order to achieve peace within. This doesn't mean you should stay in a bad situation, it simply means that if you continue to seek the outward for the inner completion, it will never happen. Don't just understand the words...experience it for yourself. The key word is Experience. 
If you are reading this, you are probably someone else who is on this path of ascension, and I honor you in your journey and that you are seeking a higher awareness. So wonderful! 
If you've been seeking for some time, you may need time to simply live. Rest in awareness, stay aware of life and what it is telling you. As you live your life, use your challenges to help you grow. AND if you get stuck, if you aren't sure how to get over something, if you have the same anxiety returning, the same fears, the same thoughts of the "old," simply ASK for help and trust that it will be received. If it's from your guides, or your higher self, it makes no difference, just ASK. Trust that LOVE, ONEness, TRUTH, is listening and will answer you, YOU will answer YOU. 
Best of LOVE!

Energies, Shifts, and Restlessness

I have been feeling so strange lately. Not in a bad way, but I'm just super charged all the time. I feel as though I'm experiencing a massive change.
Last night I had the most amazing Tarot Reading. The card representing me was The Sun, and it was being overlapped by The Moon. I think this represents the balance I've been experiencing of Light and Dark. I've been so charged in both areas. It's been amazing. I've been embracing both the light and the dark side of my life.
The root of the matter was Justice, which my eye was immediately drawn to the Scales in her hand and once again the balance that I have been achieving.
On top of that I had three Knights surrounding me. Pentacles, Wands, and Cups (as my final outcome.) I felt these energies were surrounding me and giving me strength. I tend to be a quiet person, but the Knights have been arising in my readings to represent the powerful male energy that has been propelling me forward and balancing my feminine side. The Knight energy to me is very headstrong and fearless, an energy that I could use more of. Seeing it in my reading as a trilogy was very promising and reassuring that these changes I've been experiencing have not just been my imagination.
I feel as though these times are filled with great change. I've heard of others experiencing this restlessness,  sensitives are experiencing the shifting of energies more than others. Now is a great opportunity to really face those sides of you that you are still clinging to and have not yet resolved. It's a beautiful transformation taking place above and below.
I think it is also a time to delve into our creative sides a bit. When I write I can feel myself enter the Flow of the universe and I can feel the energy of source rising within. Exercising our creativity is very similar to meditation. The energies are certainly on high, so I suggest going for it and setting aside some time to work on your own form of artistic expression. It might free some of those blockages you've been holding onto.

Sensitive to Solar Flares

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Is it just me or has anyone else been experiencing the amazing energy from the solar flares? I have had such a hard time resting at night because I feel so energized! It's the strangest thing! There are so many strong feelings coursing through me right now. I feel like many changes are taking place and I hear this information circulating through others on this path.
This is said to have an effect on the Northern Lights, how amazing is that? These things that are happening in the universe are such an amazing reminder of how amazing this physical life is and how everything is interconnected. One interesting trait has been this inner feeling that I have entirely changed, yet my outside form is still responding in the same ways it always has.
I feel as though I am slowly morphing into a new self, and it feels as if all the energy in the universe is churning and sparking like the sun. The sun is within You. Don't try to imagine it, just feel it, know it. The sun is within Being and we are Being.
I am usually a very lethargic person. I always go to sleep early and enjoy my rest. Lately I have been so charged, I feel as though I want to run, hike, be active. I never had these feelings for very long, as I mentioned I have always needed to allow myself a lot of rest. I'm sensitive like that.
But it has been incredible the amount of energy I have had lately! It only seems to increase! I was up last night just writing and thinking. I'm really enjoying it. I know it can't last forever, but I am looking forward to spending time outdoors and releasing some of this surplus energy.

Why am I a Sensitive Empath?

I find myself identifying this body, the person called "Juniper" with the labels "sensitive" and "empath." I don't like getting into the "story" that isn't really who I AM. It's not who I really am, I simply AM. We are all pure being essence. It's beautiful, everything we experience is for the ultimate GOOD, life is an amazing opportunity. I understand that now in ways I never had before.
So why do I keep referring back to these Sensitive traits? Being Sensitive means getting sweaty palms whenever I have to meet with someone at work. It means my voice getting shaky when I have to speak in front of everyone. It means not wanting to walk past someone on the street because I will feel their emotions, their judgements good or bad. I fear these various encounters.
Yet what Source has spoken, is that indeed being a Sensitive is certainly a challenge, but it is similar to any challenge or trait one might be faced with. Firstly, do not get swept up in this story. The one that says because I'm an Empath or Sensitive, I also have to be uncomfortable in front of other people.
You may indeed feel uncomfortable, heart-racing, sweat dripping, fear around others. This is simply part of your Sensitive nature. Enjoying the subtle energies of life, connecting with Spirit, and speaking with animals are all traits of being a Sensitive as well.
So ultimately, there is no Sensitive Empath, there is only Being. This body I have been gifted with is very much attuned to the subtle energies of life and it is a wondrous feeling that I remind my self daily should not be taken for granted.

We Are All Light Beings

As I begin to read people, I'm starting to see how amazing every individual is. I can see how we are all very focused on our own current situation, which is perfectly normal and fine, but sometimes we need to step outside of ourselves, to help us heal.
By "step outside of ourselves" I don't mean try to run from our fears, or try to forget who we are. Instead, I'm talking about that constant stream of fear, worry, and doubt that is on constant replay in our minds. If we succumb to these doubts, which are ultimately our ego in "animal survival mode," then we lose sight of the bigger picture.
When I tap into people to read them, the easiest part is feeling their emotion. It can bring me to tears sometimes, not in a bad way, in a good refreshing way. I can sense their energy and it is refreshing to reflect another's light.
There is light surrounding all of you. We are all light beings. Those of us who seek advice from someone tapping into the source, are seeking a higher path. But regardless of whether or not we are able to give the advice that others want to hear, we should really try to give the energy that others want to feel. I hope that regardless of how accurate I was in a reading, that just the interaction will bring someone closer to their bliss. Sometimes just knowing someone listened, or noticed, can help us shift into a higher vibration.
The connections I'm making with others in need of kindness, has been enlightening. It makes me want to shine brighter!

Tarot Reading & Twin Flame

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So, I've been reading my Tarot Cards every night. It's been somewhat informative, but also it helps me connect to Source and feel connected. I like tapping into that energy, and also the practice of accessing my intuition. It's somewhat like a meditation and also a cleansing.
My Twin Flame also likes to pick one, it's fun just to see what energies are surrounding each of us. He picked the High Priestess.
Last night I had an amazing reading. Lately I've been having spreads that include opposites. Like, I'll pick the King of wands and the Queen of wands. Or the Kind of Pentacles and Queen. Or the Two of Cups, which is very much a union/relationship card, or of course The Lovers. Last night's reading was very much about a new side of me emerging. I had many major arcanas including The Hermit, The Sun, The High Priestess (same as my Beloved), and Temperance.
It became very clear to me that this awakening is a mutual process for my Beloved and I. I realized that this relationship has become a mirror for the both of us. We cannot move forward with the growth of the other. This has already become clear to me since we have known each other. It's really strange. One of us will have an awakening of sorts. We will experience a higher level of awareness than the other. Almost immediately afterwards, the other will jump ahead too. We've described these similar experiences to one another and it's really incredible.
When we first met one another, there was a huge jump in growth. We dropped many layers of veils that we'd built up over time and shed many skins.
Since then, we've been on this unique path towards awakening. I have begun to tap into my sensitivity, which we both share, but we each have different abilities. When I've received guidance in the past, through Source, I have been told that in the past I have acted as Spirit Guide to my Twin Flame. I think he has had more incarnations on this Earth than I have, but I've helped to guide him from the outside.
This has been a painful journey, but one that is very rewarding. Yesterday we took a walk together and realized that prior to our meeting, we had both been on a path towards destruction. He had been involved in drugs, in one sort or another, and I had gone through layers of depressions and methods of self-harm.
It dawns on me now that in a way, we allowed those parts of ourselves to die. It seems like another lifetime. Once we met, it was like a new life began, or even that we had been waiting for life to begin all along. There will be many more "deaths" to come before we are completely awakened. It is such an amazing journey that has brought us here.