Have I been attacked by a negative entity?

I wanted to write this post based on some personal experiences I've been having lately. I've run into negative entities before, now more than ever I'm beginning to understand that I am sensitive to these entities and somewhat vulnerable just for being a sensitive. Granted, I still don't think there is anything to fear, in that it is more important to focus on oneself and not give the negative entity any power. However, I do think there may be some vigilance required to keep these things at bay. 

I don't believe that they can do much harm, unless you allow them to, but they are also tricky in their methods. Sometimes they can infect our thoughts and make us believe that we are without hope, lonely, or fearful. These types of attacks are elusive, so we do not realize that it is an outside energy that is making us feel this way and in fact it feels as though we are extremely depressed.

I'm not diagnosing all depression as this, however I've found in myself that sometimes these symptoms can come over me without cause or reason. It's important to have someone near you who can help you keep things in perspective. I'm so grateful to my boyfriend for helping me through these episodes. I recently came out of a particularly dark place and I think it had more to do with an entity than my own negativity.

Last month I was attacked in my sleep by a negative entity, maybe a demon, doesn't really matter what you call it. It definitely lingered and I was adamant about it leaving for good. Yet it almost went dormant in our guest room. I say that because intuition told me that it was in that room. I don't know how I know this, but I just do. Yes, I think part of it is still there.

After it revealing itself in a dream, a series of oddly unfortunate events began to occur in my waking life. It was mainly noticeably unlucky things that would happen to me. It was obvious to me that this thing was messing with me and it pissed me off. I felt like it was trying to scare me and I didn't want to let it. Not only that, it was causing some major unrest in my relationship and I felt like it was driving us apart on purpose. 

I came out on the other end okay, things seemed to settle down after I came back from a family vacation to Florida, but something told me that it was laying dormant until I was once again vulnerable. I purchased some white sage, I thought it couldn't hurt to get the last of the darkness out of our place and I had a feeling it was latching onto my boyfriend as well from time to time. 

So I did a smudging with some white sage I picked up. It wasn't my first time smudging the place. I noticed a feeling of dread about that other room though. I knew the thing didn't want me smudging that room, and I admit I entered in a somewhat state of fear. (Not a good idea). I managed to push passed the fear and smudge the room. It was so odd because it's really not a "scary" room and I've entered it before, but I felt like I was being pushed from that room, even before I made my way towards it. It was like I lit the sage and immediately felt this thing in the other room getting pissed. off. Actually, just thinking about it gives me a bit of anxiety.

Not feeling that I should be afraid, and that I should get this thing out, I smudged the entire place and every corner. I felt okay afterwards...not great...but okay. I smudged myself and my boyfriend. I thought that it was on its way out anyway, so I was hoping that would've just swept it away. Boy was I wrong...

The weeks that followed I fell into a deep depression, one that I haven't experienced in a very long time. I didn't actually make the connection between the two occurrences (smudging followed by the severe depression/psychic attack.) However once the connection was made, I knew it was exactly what had happened. I feel like I've come out of the other side fairly okay. Yet I'm pretty sure it has just gone dormant for a while until I'm in a weakened state again. My question to those who have been in similar situation is, should I sage the apartment again? Or is there something more powerful I should try? 

I refuse to let this thing get the better of me, and I'm used to having things come and go. I think perhaps this particular entity is sneaky and maybe able to linger longer because it is in hiding. Now that I am aware of it, I want to make sure it is gone for good. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!

Fellow Sensitives

I'm not sure where this blog post will take me, but I felt an urge to write about something I've recently noticed. I have been able to recognize others as kindred spirits or sensitives. There something about certain people that I can tell either I'm going to be good friends with them, or that they are closer to spiritual awareness. I don't have to talk to them, I can just immediately tell I have a connection with them.

I think in a lot of ways having psychic abilities or any kind of supernatural abilities, can become present simply by acknowledging you have them or by wanting them. For example, I had heard of some people having the ability to see the future in their dreams. I felt that would be an interesting ability to have, so I became determined to develop this ability. Simply wanting this and directing my energy towards it caused me to have multiple dreams that immediately became reality the next day.

This ability actually ended up not being for me and I decided I no longer wanted it. Immediately afterwards, it dissolved and I haven't had one since. The dreams were very jarring and it was even more intense when they became reality the very next day. I felt that I had no use for it, and perhaps I will revisit it again in the future, but right now I'm content without it.

Certain things I choose to not make go away. For example, I am contacted by higher beings frequently, even though that is a very intense experience as well. If I didn't recognize it for what it was, I would probably have a major panic attack, but as it is, I am aware of what that experience is like, so I am able to receive their messages.

Having the ability to recognize fellow sensitives was always there slightly, just as it is possible for any of us, but bringing it to the forefront, wanting to have the ability, and acknowledging that it exists, has made it even more apparent.

What abilities would you choose to have? Make it a conscious choice and believe you have the power to make it happen. You'd be surprised how well this practice works!

The Call of the Morrigan, Morgan Le Fay, Morgana

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This story is very strange...but I swear it is all true! I have never heard of The Call of the Morrigan until it happened to me and I had to research it further. Most of what I learn is often taken from personal experience and not read from someone else. When I researched this further I found that others have had similar experiences. If this is happening to you, you are not alone!

The Morrigan, is considered one of the Fey, a higher realm beings in Druidic Lore. She is said to be an Irish Goddess of battle, strife and fertility. Sometimes she takes the form of three women, the Mother the Maiden and the Crone. She also has other names such as Morgan Le Fay and Morgana from the Arthurian Legends. You can search online to find other interpretations of her. My personal interactions have been that she is fierce yet kind and motherly.

I can probably write many posts on the Morrigan, both my interactions as well as the history behind this figure. First I will simply start with my meeting.

It all started when I began to notice crows. They are already quite common, so I honestly didn't think anything of it at first. I would notice many at once, in threes or in nines. Sometimes they would perch on a tall branch and stare down at me. It wasn't just their presence, but my distinct sensing of their presence that made me begin to take notice. There was an inner knowing that there was more to them.

My initial understanding of crows and ravens was that they were birds of death and non-existence. They represented the void where life emerged from and death descended to. I felt honored by their presence, they were magic birds and I respected them. It wasn't until recently that they became so much more...

My life took a turn and I was struggling not only with myself, but the external manifestations of my feelings of frustration and restriction. I felt that I wasn't being heard and I was being taken advantage of. This I knew to be false, one can only be taken advantage of if they allow it. It is completely within my control. However, sometimes the mind takes a weakness and runs with it. I was simply bursting with anger and frustration that I did not know how to express.

I heard an inner voice beckoning me to perform a spell. I enjoy magical rituals, I don't follow any specific religion, but I respect Pagan and Wiccan practices and use them as a foundation for what calls to me. Similar to praying or meditating. I simply do whatever resonates with me at the time and am respectful of its origins. I often find myself drawn to Celtic and Irish lore, since I was a child.

I performed a meditation-type spell where I simply asked for guidance, understanding and the ability to rise above my frustrations and empower myself. After performing the spell, I felt compelled to do a quick Tarot reading in the traditional Celtic Cross. It was significant in that I got the Death card as my third card, and also got the Hanged Man. I won't go into detail of the whole reading, but I noticed that on the Hanged Man card there were crows. They caught my eye immediately and I was drawn to stare at them.

In my journal as I was writing my interpretations of the reading I mentioned the crows. In an instant the question came to mind and I ended my journal entry with the phrase, "Who is the crow Goddess?"

In that moment, I heard an odd high pitched moaning outside my window. It was very eerie and I paused to listen. I couldn't tell what it was, and I haven't heard it since. The moan was that of a Banshee, I later learned that The Morrigan is also known as a banshee, which simply translates into "woman of the sidhe" or "woman of the fairy mounds."

I couldn't go to sleep without first looking up who this Crow Goddess was. It lead me to The Morrigan, Morgan Le Fay, and Morgana. The Morrigan is related to "Death" and "Rebirth" and her rituals are performed during the New Moon. I discovered that a New Moon was in just a few days and new I had to do some sort of ritual or offering in order to accept her Call. This ended up being one of the most intense experiences of my life!

If you are interested in hearing more of my story please comment below! I have since had many more experiences that were both eerie and transformative.When the Morrigan calls upon you, you must heed her or risk angering her. I had sense that she was a powerful deity and that she was fearsome, yet I trusted her and knew that her "tough love" was just what I needed. I have never been contacted by a deity that was like her!

If you had any experiences with The Morrigan I'd love to hear how she first made her presence known to you. When she chooses you, she does not make the choice lightly and if you accept, you are hers for life. This is what I have read from others and it has been my experience as well.

Stay tuned for more of my story!

Signs in My Twin Flame Relationship

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My Twin Flame and I have been together for close to eight years. We met when we were 20 years old and from the first moment we met, we knew there was an unusual connection between the two of us. Not a connection like he was my best friend or we had the same things in common. This was a connection that had no words.

Seeing your Twin Flame (from my experience) is like seeing yourself in another. It is more like a reflection than someone who compliments you, although in some ways they do. I didn't just have a best friend connection with my Twin Flame, this was a connection I had never experienced before. It was like something in me that I had never seen before was also appearing in another. It was in him too and he felt the exact same way. It was undeniable and yet inexplicable.

To those around us, they could tell something was odd about our connection. My parents have said we have the best and closest relationship of any one they know. (Not that we don't disagree on things and fight) This is something that my father would not say lightly! Haha, he still isn't comfortable with the idea of me being a grown up and living with a man!

Anyway, this was not just the fact that we were a new couple. We spoke about our relationship (and still do!) like we had been waiting for it for a long time. I felt like I already knew my Twin Flame before meeting in this life. We joke how it was almost like we were catching each other up on what had happened to each of us since our last meeting.

My Twin Flame and I both had deeply troubled childhoods. We were both dealing with a lot of severely rooted pain when we met in college and started sharing our life experiences. Honestly, it was like a huge BANG happened in our lives when we met and we went through about a full year or more of accelerated growth and change.

Quickly, we integrated into each other's lives. It was a lot to handle and it was painful at times as we healed each other's old wounds. We were both older than our years, but he was more grounded and I was more off in the clouds. We both had to overcome major coping mechanisms.

One odd thing about both of us, is that we both felt this was our last incarnation on Earth. We felt inherently that we would not be returning for another lifetime.

If you'd like to hear more about our story, please comment below! I'd love to know what you'd be interested in learning about being in a Twin Flame relationship.

-*-Juniper-*-

Angel numbers 1234

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Recently I have been seeing consecutive numbers. For example I would look at the clock and it would be 12:34, etc. I made a mental note after seeing this a few times and decided I would investigate it further. What does this message mean?

I am an automatic writer. When I set aside time to sit down and write, I can usually access my higher self or some of the higher realm spirit guides and receive messages. Yet sometimes, whether I want to or not, I am driven to start writing. I can't control the urge, it consumes me!

This happened yesterday! I was sitting at work and all of sudden I felt this intense energy all over my body. My hand started to tremble with the energy and I knew I had to start writing. My eyes involuntarily flitted to the clock. It was 2:34!

I had since learned that consecutive numbers represent growth and the guidance of the Angels. To me, "Angels" is simply a label for spirits of the higher realms, there are many labels for these beings in all religions. They have not lived on Earth before and they offer a higher perspective and understanding of the universe.

I received a message, that was very special. The main takeaway was that I should begin sharing my experiences again. You'll notice there has been a large break between this post and the last. I have still written much about my experiences, but I had stopped sharing them. I'm not sure if these are helpful to any one, but regardless, I have been guided to share once more with any one who will listen.

I will begin to post some of the recent happenings including my haunting experience with The Morrigan, and other messages I have received. So stay tuned!

Being Your own Twin Flame

I think it goes without saying that wholeness does not require another person, whether they are your Twin Flame or not. When you see the Truth at its core, you begin to realize that there is no separate you, who requires another individual. This is just a big misunderstanding that our eyes are playing tricks on us!
Talking in a conceptualized way continues to miss the mark of what is Truth, but perhaps I can add my own personal twist on the discussion.
When you go right to the source of thoughts, you can see that thoughts arise of their own accord and that this is not what creates our identity. Go on, try it! Wait for you next thought...of course when you are completely present, thoughts disappear and you as the witness arises. This is pure present awareness, the consciousness with which possesses everything. This is who "you" really are. Let the body/mind fall away and what are you left with? That stillness is infinite and true.
When we try and search for a Twin Flame, this is because we haven't truly seen ourselves. The first and primary concern is of your inner state. The rest will follow. I took a hike the other day up a mountain by myself. I wasn't sure if I should continue, as I could see a large storm cloud in the distance. I wanted to continue, but I was fearful. In my mind I heard the distinct voice of my higher self, "Trust." Was all it said. I felt compelled further, perhaps the body was doing this either way, but the fear was what fell away. "Trust." I heard, every time I was unsure of the path. The truth is that the Universe is the guiding force behind everything we do, and why question that?
I finally made it to the top, completely dry, and on my way down I was almost to the bottom when a wall of rain swept over me. I laughed out loud, it was amazing, and I it was like a curtain of rain because it past right over me and then was gone. I jogged the rest of the way home in burst of rain, but I was fine, I felt full of energy, and I was in no danger at all. I felt the flow of the Universe and how letting go and allowing it to guide me was all I ever needed to do. I stopped resisting and let the story continue as it wished. Is it always a pleasant story? No, but bringing present joy and elation will allow for new things to enter into your life story and allow for you to receive what you need to continue onward.
So when I say "Be Your own Twin Flame," I mean that you are whole within yourself. Whether or not you will meet a Twin Flame in this incarnation is written in the stars, if it is not part of this story, the perhaps it is not yet meant to be. That is great and wonderful, because your story is a magical cosmic dance that is divinely chosen.

My story of Awakening...

This is really funny. I typed this title and I almost burst out laughing. There are all these stories of Awakening. I started this post thinking others might want to know. I'm thinking now of how I used to really want to identify with the person who was telling their awakening story. Am I like them? Did I have some similar experience to them that might tell me I'm on the right path? I think these ideas are perfectly find, they're just silly mind musings and there's nothing wrong with that. Just like this opening paragraph!

Moving on, the truth is that if I just titled this "My story of Awakening..." and went into this body's life story, you might think that somehow you need to have something similar happen to YOU. Then as you are going through Your journey, you will be constantly comparing yourself with a compilation of stories that you have heard about. I say this because "I" did this.

I think this should be followed up by a question, something that you should ask "yourself" whenever you read something or hear something, (anything, it doesn't have to be on the subject of Enlightenment), ask "yourself" is this from the Ultimate, the Source. Don't just ask your mind, ask the Infinite YOU. If what I am saying in this blog is of the Source, then you will know and you will not have to really know my story or try to find some kind of proof that I am experiencing this. Which also leads me to say that it doesn't matter what group or method you assign yourself to, because awareness just IS. Whatever path "you" walk to get there, does not matter. So if you say "I don't believe in this...or I only follow these types of teachers." It doesn't matter at all. In the end, it really is how honest "you are with yourself." Which is something that no teacher, guru, path, belief, religion, is going to do for you.

Also, if everyone's story or path was the same, it would not be such an exciting world!

Resting in Being

The initial recognition cannot be forgotten. Recognizing what you are not, causes the rest to fall away and leave what you are. The I AM presence suddenly shines through. Then everything starts falling away. I fluctuate between times of deepening and stagnation. I have entered a time when more is falling away and pure conscious awareness continues to rise within.
It's difficult to truly explain because when you recognize that this cannot be resolved within the mind, you recognize that there is no way to properly describe it. Many "teachers/guides" who whatever they choose to call themselves, like to consider words sign posts, but they certainly are not substitutes for simply feeling the life within and recognizing it as the true self.
Recently I have been going within to really catch every single thing that rises within. Whether it is a "good" feeling or a "negative" feeling I watch it with presence. There's an interesting non-reactive nature when watching or listening to something with pure presence. When relaxing into this feeling, pure joy will rise up within shortly after. The more we bring this into life, the more it becomes a natural state.
Ultimately, I continue to say this: If you are looking to find this, you must be willing to let the "you" that you believe to be you "die." You have to be willing to let that fall away and give that up, to finally see that there was never a "you" to die and that you are eternal. There's no ego in that, there's no false self when you let it fall away and come to the neutral state. Seeing it within yourself and all things leads to infinite depths of pure peace and joy. It's a beautiful world.
Recently I met with my parents. I love them very much, and I can see the pain and the searching. I could see my old self in them and empathize with the feeling of wanting and seeking wholeness. It is not something you can give to someone else, as much as I wish it was.

THIS IS NOT IT

This is a good title for anyone who is writing an article about Enlightenment. How do you reach it? Where is it? What is it? These are great questions to ask, but don't ask them of any person, as soon as they start to tell you, THAT'S NOT IT. Catch my drift?
I feel as though the only thing a teacher can ACTUALLY point at, is not how to reach "Enlightenment" or what it is, but simply to point at YOU. That is something most bodies do not want to look at. They will look everywhere else, but within.
DON'T LOOK at YOUR NAME HERE! That's NOT it either. You think, okay, I have to look at myself. Okay, here goes. My name is _____ and I try to do nice things, and I try to be a good person, and everyone always seems to take advantage of me or is really mean to me, but I will just try and be a better person and then maybe good things will happen...
NOT IT!
I only say this because of the numerous traps that my mind tried to lead me into. The mind wants to be part of your magical little journey. It says, oh Enlightenment? YES! I want to be that special person! Let's do it! But your mind is not really what leads you there.
Honestly from the perspective "I'm" at now, it seems as though there isn't any real way to exercise your Awareness muscle so that you "turn" Enlightened. The desire has to be there, and the yearning, the discomfort in the body, these will all propel you. But what flicks the switch? Well, YOU, the Utlimate YOU, but what determines this in various bodies? Internally I'm feeling neutral about this. It's almost impossible to say, you may already know inherently that you will turn this switch, and I do believe that "knowing" this, without a doubt, is a sure sign that you will succeed. Eckhart Tolle, an Awakened One without a doubt, speaks of this "deepening" and the pursuit of becoming more present in the body. So the "striving" for this state cannot be ignored or denied.
Back to the Looking Within. If you are trying to resolve all the feelings of hurt, anguish, regret, betrayal, (need I go on?) that has happened to you since childhood, then you are not going to find what you seek. These are all things that might need to be healed. But rest-assured that if you keep returning to these, you will be forever exhausted. There is no "you" to be healed. These things will continue to arise to be "healed" or "fixed." Just give up on them, accept them. It's kind of like trying to kill the evil mushrooms in Mario Bros. You jump on their backs, and walk until they're off screen, go back and they're alive again.
If you keep trying to squish every emotion, you're just exhausting an endless game. Don't feel like you aren't doing it right if you keep getting anxiety, or if you keep experiencing sadness. This isn't YOU and there's really nothing to be done about it. The real Gold is beneath these surface games, once you see it you will laugh, I promise you.
This is why I can say with complete certainty, "THIS IS NOT IT." I urge you to turn inwards. To really go to the source. Then, when you feel guided, certainly read from the true Ascended Masters, but only after you have tasted it yourself. If you don't want to read what someone else has to say about it, that's great too! Because YOU have everything you need within YOU. Your body is the PORTAL, the GATEWAY to the INFINITE and the FINITE. They meet within YOU! Don't seek to entertain the Finite you. This will only prolong suffering. Drop those games and seek higher, deeper, beyond.

This cannot be written...

I spent the last few minutes searching on the internet for something I will not find. Search for the word "Enlightened" and you will find a multitude of self help books. You will find an infinite number of "teachers" and "coaches." There are too many books to read, too many interviews, podcasts, radio shows, blogs, Facebook pages, it is endless.
What I was searching for is not in any of them. When I think of what "I" have discovered, I have to laugh at all of these various techniques, descriptions, sign posts, whatever you want to call them. I even laugh at "myself." All of the countless pages I have written about how "I feel" about something someone said, or something that "resonates" with me. It's all very funny and pointless.
I don't think writing a blog post, posting a video, any of these things, will help you. This blog started out as a place for a sensitive girl to express herself while she began to seek inwardly. (That "person" seems so distant now.) If you are a sensitive person, I do not discourage you from doing this. Now I realize that the sensitivity itself is pointing you in the right direction.
Here's the truth, you will never find it in the material world. Just knowing that this exists is enough. Don't begin seeking and filling your mind with all of these preconceived notions of how it should be.
This vastness exists whether you believe it in or not, you are a part of it. As soon as I begin to refer to "it" I feel like I should just stop myself. I AM, and that is all that matters.
I've realized that this is the ONLY thing worth pursuing. All else is imaginary, all else is illusory because you will never actually reach it. This is the only thing you can actually obtain. There is nothing in the physical world that you can actually "achieve."
I look around and I am not sad, I am no longer frustrated with the world. I am in awe of it, and I wonder how the majority of people aren't pursuing the ultimate. I wish to shake them to wake them up. Haha!
That of course is useless. I can see how these masters, Rumi, Buddha, Jesus, they wrote beautifully, and they wished to help others wake up. Their words are timeless and so eloquent, yet so easily misunderstood by the mind and what it wants to believe. It's not that these "teachers, gurus, etc." didn't try to point the right way. It's just that there is no actual pointing. There is only being. I have to chuckle because I can hear these same phrases coming from me now and I know how they are so quickly interpreted and misconstrued by the mind.
I can see how when I would first read or hear about the Ultimate, I would think I understood it. But this was all on the surface. This is all just an illusion. I had glimpses of it, but I didn't fully understand it. I will continue to understand these concepts even deeper than I do now, I do not claim to be on the level of Buddha or Jesus, because there is a deepening taking place within. Either way I have reached  place where there is nothing to say to describe it, there is no one to ask for help, there just IS.

River Gateway

MONDAY! I’m so tired physically! I’m not sure why, but I’m especially tired today. I just woke up this morning, wondering when this cycle is going to be over. When this job is going to no longer serve me. I feel and sense that it no longer does. I had so many experiences...more on that later...but I really feel as though I’ve moved on from the job but it hasn’t physically manifested yet and I’m wondering if this means I’m not doing enough to change.
I have received multiple messages of what must be done. Right now I am in a stage of transitioning. I have experienced much of this and it’s just that the physical takes a bit of time to follow. I will tell you what happened yesterday.
My Twin Flame and I took a hike in the woods. It was so amazing. The energies were so perfect, pure, smooth, and heightened. I felt like I was in a vortex of energy. It was amazing. We sat on a bridge and just watched the water pass under our feet. It was so relaxing and necessary for the cleansing. Beautiful!
Afterwards we walked further through the woods and just made our own path. Everything was in divine order, we were just existing and enjoying nature and pure being. There was a moment when we were crossing over one of the many rivers. I looked into the water and I just felt this need to pause. I thought “This river is full of energy and crossing this river is like crossing through a gateway.” I thought about how running water is super-charged and imagined myself passing through a light gateway. Then I closed my eyes and I felt myself in the presence of the many and the essence of the river and the spirit of nature. They were nature beings I suppose. I felt the tears of joy coming down my cheeks. I felt myself being lifted up and also light coming through my crown chakra. I felt this overwhelming joy. I was being enveloped by light and they told me that I was meant to have come to their forest. I was meant to be there, that it was all happening in divine timing and that I needed to have faith. They told me that I was needed there. They told me that I was “exactly where I needed to be.” They were basically just reassuring and cleansing me of any doubt or negativity. My mind was going, but I was rooted in place and I was basking in this glow. It was so powerful, I felt as though I was no longer in my body, the body felt very heavy and distant. Yet I was still in it. I experienced it in the body, and yet I would describe it as an out-of-body experience. I felt very, very empowered. I’m not sure how long it lasted, but my eyes opened by themselves and I was just told to walk and continue.
My body was moving, but I was not guiding it. I was slowly returning back, but my eyes had already opened and my body had already begun to move. I was trying to hang onto that experience and not lose it.
I think that’s why I felt the need to not go to work today. I feel as though I have moved on, but the body continues to go to work. It’s interesting. I can’t say I was resistant to it, because it’s not the same. It’s not the same kind of feeling b/c it almost feels on the surface and not how I really feel. Whereas before, I did feel that it mattered. I do not feel as though it “matters” I just notice there is an inbetween. In other words, the body is acting in the old and the spirit is acting in the new and somewhere between is the mind. It hasn’t completely followed because it is still thinking it needs to go to work, make money, etc. The inner knowing is calm and at peace and I feel very much connected to that infinite peace. Strange right?
I can’t say it’s strange either, the strange is still on the surface and does not really affect me. I can’t really describe it.
I do know that I am kind of operating from the space in between. I have not yet received guidance on what the physical manifestation of all of this will be, however I feel the change is approaching. I did not know what I will be guided to do, however I did receive this message. The Message was from the cards that BDivine read. She said that it is the time for change, that you would need to let go and to cut ties, but that all I needed to do was to cut ties from within and then this would open up the pathway. Whatever way she said this exactly, I began to cry and I knew this to be the truth and this to be the divine guidance. Once I have truly cut ties emotionally, mentally, then it can finally make way for the physical.
This cutting of ties has been going on for some time. I have already lost that roller coaster emotion based on what is happening with my job. I no longer have that. I am not invested in it. When I leave, I do not think about it or worry about it. I just have no desire. She also said, the more I think about it, the more I try to work out what is going to happen and how it is going to unfold, the more energy I am putting towards it. I started doing that this morning, trying to figure out what my next move is going to be. Don’t buy into that. You only need FAITH. That is all. You may have the FAITH that everything is going to work out in divine timing.
Now connecting back to my experience in the woods, they were there to comfort and reassure you. Everything is as it should be. You are there for that message, you are there for many more. You are connected and will always be connected.

Asking For Help

It's been a very long time since I've felt guided to post something. I've really come a long way, in the sense that I've had many awakenings since my last post. There are many others experiencing these energy shifts and having incredible experiences. Beautiful!
Well, I'd like to return with a post about asking for Help. I've been writing throughout the entire experience, and I will most likely post most of these thoughts and musings here, as I am guided to.
Anyway, back to asking for HELP. This seems so simple, but so often we forget that we have this resource at our fingertips. The infinite is there to help. You are the infinite, and so asking for help from your higher self, and from the one source, is like asking for Help from your future self who can look back and guide you through your steps.
I think often we seek Help from "teachers" and people who have given themselves this label. Some are offering valuable guidance, but I can't stress enough the importance of seeking Truth within. If you are not sure what this means for You, then ASK for HELP. I promise you, there is nothing wrong with admitting that you are not sure how to find growth and insight into the Truth. Too often we ask others for advice, we read other's experiences, we compare ourselves to those we look up to.
There is nothing wrong with this, please don't get me wrong, I'm not discounting this. Yet seeking outside yourself will only bring you so far, and you won't reach that inner peace and connect with Source without Asking from within. How do you do this? It doesn't matter where you are, just ASK, out-loud, write it down on a piece of paper, sing it out, or just close your eyes and think it. "Please help me reach my highest vibration." "Help me grow to my greatest potential." Ask with your purest, most love-filled intentions.
The honest beautiful truth is that we are the only ones experiencing this unique life, with it's own challenges and joys. So no one can really tell you what to expect in your growth. I'm strictly talking about the internal, (the one source). 
I can say honestly from experience that you do not need to change ANYthing in your outer world in order to achieve peace within. This doesn't mean you should stay in a bad situation, it simply means that if you continue to seek the outward for the inner completion, it will never happen. Don't just understand the words...experience it for yourself. The key word is Experience. 
If you are reading this, you are probably someone else who is on this path of ascension, and I honor you in your journey and that you are seeking a higher awareness. So wonderful! 
If you've been seeking for some time, you may need time to simply live. Rest in awareness, stay aware of life and what it is telling you. As you live your life, use your challenges to help you grow. AND if you get stuck, if you aren't sure how to get over something, if you have the same anxiety returning, the same fears, the same thoughts of the "old," simply ASK for help and trust that it will be received. If it's from your guides, or your higher self, it makes no difference, just ASK. Trust that LOVE, ONEness, TRUTH, is listening and will answer you, YOU will answer YOU. 
Best of LOVE!

Energies, Shifts, and Restlessness

I have been feeling so strange lately. Not in a bad way, but I'm just super charged all the time. I feel as though I'm experiencing a massive change.
Last night I had the most amazing Tarot Reading. The card representing me was The Sun, and it was being overlapped by The Moon. I think this represents the balance I've been experiencing of Light and Dark. I've been so charged in both areas. It's been amazing. I've been embracing both the light and the dark side of my life.
The root of the matter was Justice, which my eye was immediately drawn to the Scales in her hand and once again the balance that I have been achieving.
On top of that I had three Knights surrounding me. Pentacles, Wands, and Cups (as my final outcome.) I felt these energies were surrounding me and giving me strength. I tend to be a quiet person, but the Knights have been arising in my readings to represent the powerful male energy that has been propelling me forward and balancing my feminine side. The Knight energy to me is very headstrong and fearless, an energy that I could use more of. Seeing it in my reading as a trilogy was very promising and reassuring that these changes I've been experiencing have not just been my imagination.
I feel as though these times are filled with great change. I've heard of others experiencing this restlessness,  sensitives are experiencing the shifting of energies more than others. Now is a great opportunity to really face those sides of you that you are still clinging to and have not yet resolved. It's a beautiful transformation taking place above and below.
I think it is also a time to delve into our creative sides a bit. When I write I can feel myself enter the Flow of the universe and I can feel the energy of source rising within. Exercising our creativity is very similar to meditation. The energies are certainly on high, so I suggest going for it and setting aside some time to work on your own form of artistic expression. It might free some of those blockages you've been holding onto.

Sensitive to Solar Flares

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Is it just me or has anyone else been experiencing the amazing energy from the solar flares? I have had such a hard time resting at night because I feel so energized! It's the strangest thing! There are so many strong feelings coursing through me right now. I feel like many changes are taking place and I hear this information circulating through others on this path.
This is said to have an effect on the Northern Lights, how amazing is that? These things that are happening in the universe are such an amazing reminder of how amazing this physical life is and how everything is interconnected. One interesting trait has been this inner feeling that I have entirely changed, yet my outside form is still responding in the same ways it always has.
I feel as though I am slowly morphing into a new self, and it feels as if all the energy in the universe is churning and sparking like the sun. The sun is within You. Don't try to imagine it, just feel it, know it. The sun is within Being and we are Being.
I am usually a very lethargic person. I always go to sleep early and enjoy my rest. Lately I have been so charged, I feel as though I want to run, hike, be active. I never had these feelings for very long, as I mentioned I have always needed to allow myself a lot of rest. I'm sensitive like that.
But it has been incredible the amount of energy I have had lately! It only seems to increase! I was up last night just writing and thinking. I'm really enjoying it. I know it can't last forever, but I am looking forward to spending time outdoors and releasing some of this surplus energy.

Why am I a Sensitive Empath?

I find myself identifying this body, the person called "Juniper" with the labels "sensitive" and "empath." I don't like getting into the "story" that isn't really who I AM. It's not who I really am, I simply AM. We are all pure being essence. It's beautiful, everything we experience is for the ultimate GOOD, life is an amazing opportunity. I understand that now in ways I never had before.
So why do I keep referring back to these Sensitive traits? Being Sensitive means getting sweaty palms whenever I have to meet with someone at work. It means my voice getting shaky when I have to speak in front of everyone. It means not wanting to walk past someone on the street because I will feel their emotions, their judgements good or bad. I fear these various encounters.
Yet what Source has spoken, is that indeed being a Sensitive is certainly a challenge, but it is similar to any challenge or trait one might be faced with. Firstly, do not get swept up in this story. The one that says because I'm an Empath or Sensitive, I also have to be uncomfortable in front of other people.
You may indeed feel uncomfortable, heart-racing, sweat dripping, fear around others. This is simply part of your Sensitive nature. Enjoying the subtle energies of life, connecting with Spirit, and speaking with animals are all traits of being a Sensitive as well.
So ultimately, there is no Sensitive Empath, there is only Being. This body I have been gifted with is very much attuned to the subtle energies of life and it is a wondrous feeling that I remind my self daily should not be taken for granted.

We Are All Light Beings

As I begin to read people, I'm starting to see how amazing every individual is. I can see how we are all very focused on our own current situation, which is perfectly normal and fine, but sometimes we need to step outside of ourselves, to help us heal.
By "step outside of ourselves" I don't mean try to run from our fears, or try to forget who we are. Instead, I'm talking about that constant stream of fear, worry, and doubt that is on constant replay in our minds. If we succumb to these doubts, which are ultimately our ego in "animal survival mode," then we lose sight of the bigger picture.
When I tap into people to read them, the easiest part is feeling their emotion. It can bring me to tears sometimes, not in a bad way, in a good refreshing way. I can sense their energy and it is refreshing to reflect another's light.
There is light surrounding all of you. We are all light beings. Those of us who seek advice from someone tapping into the source, are seeking a higher path. But regardless of whether or not we are able to give the advice that others want to hear, we should really try to give the energy that others want to feel. I hope that regardless of how accurate I was in a reading, that just the interaction will bring someone closer to their bliss. Sometimes just knowing someone listened, or noticed, can help us shift into a higher vibration.
The connections I'm making with others in need of kindness, has been enlightening. It makes me want to shine brighter!

Tarot Reading & Twin Flame

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So, I've been reading my Tarot Cards every night. It's been somewhat informative, but also it helps me connect to Source and feel connected. I like tapping into that energy, and also the practice of accessing my intuition. It's somewhat like a meditation and also a cleansing.
My Twin Flame also likes to pick one, it's fun just to see what energies are surrounding each of us. He picked the High Priestess.
Last night I had an amazing reading. Lately I've been having spreads that include opposites. Like, I'll pick the King of wands and the Queen of wands. Or the Kind of Pentacles and Queen. Or the Two of Cups, which is very much a union/relationship card, or of course The Lovers. Last night's reading was very much about a new side of me emerging. I had many major arcanas including The Hermit, The Sun, The High Priestess (same as my Beloved), and Temperance.
It became very clear to me that this awakening is a mutual process for my Beloved and I. I realized that this relationship has become a mirror for the both of us. We cannot move forward with the growth of the other. This has already become clear to me since we have known each other. It's really strange. One of us will have an awakening of sorts. We will experience a higher level of awareness than the other. Almost immediately afterwards, the other will jump ahead too. We've described these similar experiences to one another and it's really incredible.
When we first met one another, there was a huge jump in growth. We dropped many layers of veils that we'd built up over time and shed many skins.
Since then, we've been on this unique path towards awakening. I have begun to tap into my sensitivity, which we both share, but we each have different abilities. When I've received guidance in the past, through Source, I have been told that in the past I have acted as Spirit Guide to my Twin Flame. I think he has had more incarnations on this Earth than I have, but I've helped to guide him from the outside.
This has been a painful journey, but one that is very rewarding. Yesterday we took a walk together and realized that prior to our meeting, we had both been on a path towards destruction. He had been involved in drugs, in one sort or another, and I had gone through layers of depressions and methods of self-harm.
It dawns on me now that in a way, we allowed those parts of ourselves to die. It seems like another lifetime. Once we met, it was like a new life began, or even that we had been waiting for life to begin all along. There will be many more "deaths" to come before we are completely awakened. It is such an amazing journey that has brought us here.

Twin Flame Challenges and Relationships

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It is undeniable that the Twin Flame relationship brings with it many challenges. As I've mentioned before, prior to meeting my Twin Flame I had a strong feeling that he was present. Somehow I could feel him and know him. Honestly, I did not know what a Twin Flame was until well after meeting him. I honestly could've described the "Twin Flame" relationship as how it felt meeting my partner, but I didn't have the label "Twin Flame" to attach to it.
Ultimately, I really have to stress how difficult it is meeting your Twin Flame. It requires a lot of self-improvement and looking inward for guidance and understanding. The self is simply an illusion, and your Twin Flame will help you break that down.
 When I met with my Twin Flame, different parts of me died and I feel as though I emerged into a higher state of awareness. It was a very tumultuous time in my life and I was forced to face parts of myself that I did not like.
Often my Twin Flame will reflect back to me how I need to speak up more, or will tell me I am too passive. This really pushes my buttons, but this is what a Twin Flame does. It is yourself in physical form, they are your opposite mirroring back to you what you need to grow and create balance. It's not an easy reuniting, but it is also very fulfilling if you can recognize what it means.
Obviously that one example of how my Twin Flame pushes my buttons, isn't the most inspiring example, but you get the idea. Ultimately all of our relationships do this exact thing. They are bringing to light your true insecurities and what you believe to be your insufficiency. (But ultimately you are not lacking anything.) Once you reach your Twin Flame, I feel this is the chance to experience the ultimate "death" of the self that you have created. To break free from the bonds that keep you from your true self, and from awakening.
But it is ALL good. It is all here to be experienced. So whether or not you are currently with your Twin Flame, all the relationships we are experiencing are good and will help us on the path. Rather than struggling in them and trying to make them something they are not, we must embrace them. See the mirror of yourself in those around you and how they are helping you and guiding you to be more attuned to your INNER TRUTH.

Do we have free will?

This question has been on my mind lately. Ultimately, I believe that we are all existing in pure being, pure light. So ultimately everything is good, everything is occurring in us. Ultimately there is nothing to lose, and nothing to gain, because we are eternal. Being is eternal.
That's all fine and dandy, I can accept this. In fact, I find it somewhat comforting to believe that life is simply a story that I am watching enfold, it is simply a ride - Being expressing itself in multiple forms.
But that isn't enough. Is my mind simply trying to create purpose where there isn't any? That just doesn't resonate with me. I can accept that we are riding the ride, but to say the ride is completely void of destination seems like a waste of energy.
So what is this all about? To what extent do we have free will, if at all?
The free will, is not how we would imagine it. It's not in that we perhaps are choosing every step and direction we take, sometimes we are subject to our physical forms and their reactions, circumstances, etc. The free will is beyond that. The free will is to be aware. In awareness we find our true freedom. When we are acting from awareness we are enabling our free will.
You can not make a decision when you are still acting from a place of unconsciousness. When that is the case, you are simply responding to the energy flow. It takes over you and it guides you. This is okay, there is nothing wrong in it. There is nothing lost, you have an infinite amount of time to become aware and to reach Enlightenment.
If you answer the call, if you respond to your inner voice, you will help yourself move towards your highest energy. Acting out of fear and ignoring this voice, this inner knowing, will keep you in your ignorance.
First, forgive yourself, don't resist your own thoughts, don't hate your built-up fears. Simply observe them and listen. Watch for that inner knowing. This is your truth, what resonates with you?
Free will is ultimately a decision made from this place. So what are you moving towards? Recognizing your true self. The self that is not individual, but is infinite.

Twin Flames: My Strange Story

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It's impossible for me to say what each and every Twin Flame pairing will experience, but I was getting ready for work this morning and I got to thinking of a particularly interesting connection that my Twin Flame and I had.
How will you know if it's your Twin Flame? You will just know. In fact, the feeling will be quite indescribable. It's less about finding the "love of your life." Although it feels that way too, but it's more like you've found yourself! There will be no question. But enough about that, here is my funny story.
Honestly before and after meeting my Twin Flame, I didn't know what a Twin Flame was. When I stumbled across the description, we both finally had a name for something we were both already aware of, but didn't have a label for yet. But before we even met I used to have the weirdest dreams...
The recurring dream was that I was smoking a cigarette. I never tried a cigarette before and never had the inkling to. None of my family members smoked, and it really didn't interest me whatsoever. So, you can imagine how strange it was that I would have a very distinct and realistic dream that I was a smoker.
It was so realistic that when I woke up from this dream, I would crave a cigarette. I would literally want to go smoke a cigarette. These dreams started when I was about 15 or 16 years old.
When I started going to college, I recall still having this dream. I am certain they continued this long because I remember telling someone about it and how strange it was.
I guess you are already guessing what I'm about to say. My Twin Flame was a smoker! Well, luckily he quit smoking and guess what? I haven't had the dream since. I've also since found out that he started smoking at around 15 years of age!