Signs in My Twin Flame Relationship

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My Twin Flame and I have been together for close to eight years. We met when we were 20 years old and from the first moment we met, we knew there was an unusual connection between the two of us. Not a connection like he was my best friend or we had the same things in common. This was a connection that had no words.

Seeing your Twin Flame (from my experience) is like seeing yourself in another. It is more like a reflection than someone who compliments you, although in some ways they do. I didn't just have a best friend connection with my Twin Flame, this was a connection I had never experienced before. It was like something in me that I had never seen before was also appearing in another. It was in him too and he felt the exact same way. It was undeniable and yet inexplicable.

To those around us, they could tell something was odd about our connection. My parents have said we have the best and closest relationship of any one they know. (Not that we don't disagree on things and fight) This is something that my father would not say lightly! Haha, he still isn't comfortable with the idea of me being a grown up and living with a man!

Anyway, this was not just the fact that we were a new couple. We spoke about our relationship (and still do!) like we had been waiting for it for a long time. I felt like I already knew my Twin Flame before meeting in this life. We joke how it was almost like we were catching each other up on what had happened to each of us since our last meeting.

My Twin Flame and I both had deeply troubled childhoods. We were both dealing with a lot of severely rooted pain when we met in college and started sharing our life experiences. Honestly, it was like a huge BANG happened in our lives when we met and we went through about a full year or more of accelerated growth and change.

Quickly, we integrated into each other's lives. It was a lot to handle and it was painful at times as we healed each other's old wounds. We were both older than our years, but he was more grounded and I was more off in the clouds. We both had to overcome major coping mechanisms.

One odd thing about both of us, is that we both felt this was our last incarnation on Earth. We felt inherently that we would not be returning for another lifetime.

If you'd like to hear more about our story, please comment below! I'd love to know what you'd be interested in learning about being in a Twin Flame relationship.

-*-Juniper-*-

Angel numbers 1234

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Recently I have been seeing consecutive numbers. For example I would look at the clock and it would be 12:34, etc. I made a mental note after seeing this a few times and decided I would investigate it further. What does this message mean?

I am an automatic writer. When I set aside time to sit down and write, I can usually access my higher self or some of the higher realm spirit guides and receive messages. Yet sometimes, whether I want to or not, I am driven to start writing. I can't control the urge, it consumes me!

This happened yesterday! I was sitting at work and all of sudden I felt this intense energy all over my body. My hand started to tremble with the energy and I knew I had to start writing. My eyes involuntarily flitted to the clock. It was 2:34!

I had since learned that consecutive numbers represent growth and the guidance of the Angels. To me, "Angels" is simply a label for spirits of the higher realms, there are many labels for these beings in all religions. They have not lived on Earth before and they offer a higher perspective and understanding of the universe.

I received a message, that was very special. The main takeaway was that I should begin sharing my experiences again. You'll notice there has been a large break between this post and the last. I have still written much about my experiences, but I had stopped sharing them. I'm not sure if these are helpful to any one, but regardless, I have been guided to share once more with any one who will listen.

I will begin to post some of the recent happenings including my haunting experience with The Morrigan, and other messages I have received. So stay tuned!

Being Your own Twin Flame

I think it goes without saying that wholeness does not require another person, whether they are your Twin Flame or not. When you see the Truth at its core, you begin to realize that there is no separate you, who requires another individual. This is just a big misunderstanding that our eyes are playing tricks on us!
Talking in a conceptualized way continues to miss the mark of what is Truth, but perhaps I can add my own personal twist on the discussion.
When you go right to the source of thoughts, you can see that thoughts arise of their own accord and that this is not what creates our identity. Go on, try it! Wait for you next thought...of course when you are completely present, thoughts disappear and you as the witness arises. This is pure present awareness, the consciousness with which possesses everything. This is who "you" really are. Let the body/mind fall away and what are you left with? That stillness is infinite and true.
When we try and search for a Twin Flame, this is because we haven't truly seen ourselves. The first and primary concern is of your inner state. The rest will follow. I took a hike the other day up a mountain by myself. I wasn't sure if I should continue, as I could see a large storm cloud in the distance. I wanted to continue, but I was fearful. In my mind I heard the distinct voice of my higher self, "Trust." Was all it said. I felt compelled further, perhaps the body was doing this either way, but the fear was what fell away. "Trust." I heard, every time I was unsure of the path. The truth is that the Universe is the guiding force behind everything we do, and why question that?
I finally made it to the top, completely dry, and on my way down I was almost to the bottom when a wall of rain swept over me. I laughed out loud, it was amazing, and I it was like a curtain of rain because it past right over me and then was gone. I jogged the rest of the way home in burst of rain, but I was fine, I felt full of energy, and I was in no danger at all. I felt the flow of the Universe and how letting go and allowing it to guide me was all I ever needed to do. I stopped resisting and let the story continue as it wished. Is it always a pleasant story? No, but bringing present joy and elation will allow for new things to enter into your life story and allow for you to receive what you need to continue onward.
So when I say "Be Your own Twin Flame," I mean that you are whole within yourself. Whether or not you will meet a Twin Flame in this incarnation is written in the stars, if it is not part of this story, the perhaps it is not yet meant to be. That is great and wonderful, because your story is a magical cosmic dance that is divinely chosen.

My story of Awakening...

This is really funny. I typed this title and I almost burst out laughing. There are all these stories of Awakening. I started this post thinking others might want to know. I'm thinking now of how I used to really want to identify with the person who was telling their awakening story. Am I like them? Did I have some similar experience to them that might tell me I'm on the right path? I think these ideas are perfectly find, they're just silly mind musings and there's nothing wrong with that. Just like this opening paragraph!

Moving on, the truth is that if I just titled this "My story of Awakening..." and went into this body's life story, you might think that somehow you need to have something similar happen to YOU. Then as you are going through Your journey, you will be constantly comparing yourself with a compilation of stories that you have heard about. I say this because "I" did this.

I think this should be followed up by a question, something that you should ask "yourself" whenever you read something or hear something, (anything, it doesn't have to be on the subject of Enlightenment), ask "yourself" is this from the Ultimate, the Source. Don't just ask your mind, ask the Infinite YOU. If what I am saying in this blog is of the Source, then you will know and you will not have to really know my story or try to find some kind of proof that I am experiencing this. Which also leads me to say that it doesn't matter what group or method you assign yourself to, because awareness just IS. Whatever path "you" walk to get there, does not matter. So if you say "I don't believe in this...or I only follow these types of teachers." It doesn't matter at all. In the end, it really is how honest "you are with yourself." Which is something that no teacher, guru, path, belief, religion, is going to do for you.

Also, if everyone's story or path was the same, it would not be such an exciting world!

Resting in Being

The initial recognition cannot be forgotten. Recognizing what you are not, causes the rest to fall away and leave what you are. The I AM presence suddenly shines through. Then everything starts falling away. I fluctuate between times of deepening and stagnation. I have entered a time when more is falling away and pure conscious awareness continues to rise within.
It's difficult to truly explain because when you recognize that this cannot be resolved within the mind, you recognize that there is no way to properly describe it. Many "teachers/guides" who whatever they choose to call themselves, like to consider words sign posts, but they certainly are not substitutes for simply feeling the life within and recognizing it as the true self.
Recently I have been going within to really catch every single thing that rises within. Whether it is a "good" feeling or a "negative" feeling I watch it with presence. There's an interesting non-reactive nature when watching or listening to something with pure presence. When relaxing into this feeling, pure joy will rise up within shortly after. The more we bring this into life, the more it becomes a natural state.
Ultimately, I continue to say this: If you are looking to find this, you must be willing to let the "you" that you believe to be you "die." You have to be willing to let that fall away and give that up, to finally see that there was never a "you" to die and that you are eternal. There's no ego in that, there's no false self when you let it fall away and come to the neutral state. Seeing it within yourself and all things leads to infinite depths of pure peace and joy. It's a beautiful world.
Recently I met with my parents. I love them very much, and I can see the pain and the searching. I could see my old self in them and empathize with the feeling of wanting and seeking wholeness. It is not something you can give to someone else, as much as I wish it was.

THIS IS NOT IT

This is a good title for anyone who is writing an article about Enlightenment. How do you reach it? Where is it? What is it? These are great questions to ask, but don't ask them of any person, as soon as they start to tell you, THAT'S NOT IT. Catch my drift?
I feel as though the only thing a teacher can ACTUALLY point at, is not how to reach "Enlightenment" or what it is, but simply to point at YOU. That is something most bodies do not want to look at. They will look everywhere else, but within.
DON'T LOOK at YOUR NAME HERE! That's NOT it either. You think, okay, I have to look at myself. Okay, here goes. My name is _____ and I try to do nice things, and I try to be a good person, and everyone always seems to take advantage of me or is really mean to me, but I will just try and be a better person and then maybe good things will happen...
NOT IT!
I only say this because of the numerous traps that my mind tried to lead me into. The mind wants to be part of your magical little journey. It says, oh Enlightenment? YES! I want to be that special person! Let's do it! But your mind is not really what leads you there.
Honestly from the perspective "I'm" at now, it seems as though there isn't any real way to exercise your Awareness muscle so that you "turn" Enlightened. The desire has to be there, and the yearning, the discomfort in the body, these will all propel you. But what flicks the switch? Well, YOU, the Utlimate YOU, but what determines this in various bodies? Internally I'm feeling neutral about this. It's almost impossible to say, you may already know inherently that you will turn this switch, and I do believe that "knowing" this, without a doubt, is a sure sign that you will succeed. Eckhart Tolle, an Awakened One without a doubt, speaks of this "deepening" and the pursuit of becoming more present in the body. So the "striving" for this state cannot be ignored or denied.
Back to the Looking Within. If you are trying to resolve all the feelings of hurt, anguish, regret, betrayal, (need I go on?) that has happened to you since childhood, then you are not going to find what you seek. These are all things that might need to be healed. But rest-assured that if you keep returning to these, you will be forever exhausted. There is no "you" to be healed. These things will continue to arise to be "healed" or "fixed." Just give up on them, accept them. It's kind of like trying to kill the evil mushrooms in Mario Bros. You jump on their backs, and walk until they're off screen, go back and they're alive again.
If you keep trying to squish every emotion, you're just exhausting an endless game. Don't feel like you aren't doing it right if you keep getting anxiety, or if you keep experiencing sadness. This isn't YOU and there's really nothing to be done about it. The real Gold is beneath these surface games, once you see it you will laugh, I promise you.
This is why I can say with complete certainty, "THIS IS NOT IT." I urge you to turn inwards. To really go to the source. Then, when you feel guided, certainly read from the true Ascended Masters, but only after you have tasted it yourself. If you don't want to read what someone else has to say about it, that's great too! Because YOU have everything you need within YOU. Your body is the PORTAL, the GATEWAY to the INFINITE and the FINITE. They meet within YOU! Don't seek to entertain the Finite you. This will only prolong suffering. Drop those games and seek higher, deeper, beyond.

This cannot be written...

I spent the last few minutes searching on the internet for something I will not find. Search for the word "Enlightened" and you will find a multitude of self help books. You will find an infinite number of "teachers" and "coaches." There are too many books to read, too many interviews, podcasts, radio shows, blogs, Facebook pages, it is endless.
What I was searching for is not in any of them. When I think of what "I" have discovered, I have to laugh at all of these various techniques, descriptions, sign posts, whatever you want to call them. I even laugh at "myself." All of the countless pages I have written about how "I feel" about something someone said, or something that "resonates" with me. It's all very funny and pointless.
I don't think writing a blog post, posting a video, any of these things, will help you. This blog started out as a place for a sensitive girl to express herself while she began to seek inwardly. (That "person" seems so distant now.) If you are a sensitive person, I do not discourage you from doing this. Now I realize that the sensitivity itself is pointing you in the right direction.
Here's the truth, you will never find it in the material world. Just knowing that this exists is enough. Don't begin seeking and filling your mind with all of these preconceived notions of how it should be.
This vastness exists whether you believe it in or not, you are a part of it. As soon as I begin to refer to "it" I feel like I should just stop myself. I AM, and that is all that matters.
I've realized that this is the ONLY thing worth pursuing. All else is imaginary, all else is illusory because you will never actually reach it. This is the only thing you can actually obtain. There is nothing in the physical world that you can actually "achieve."
I look around and I am not sad, I am no longer frustrated with the world. I am in awe of it, and I wonder how the majority of people aren't pursuing the ultimate. I wish to shake them to wake them up. Haha!
That of course is useless. I can see how these masters, Rumi, Buddha, Jesus, they wrote beautifully, and they wished to help others wake up. Their words are timeless and so eloquent, yet so easily misunderstood by the mind and what it wants to believe. It's not that these "teachers, gurus, etc." didn't try to point the right way. It's just that there is no actual pointing. There is only being. I have to chuckle because I can hear these same phrases coming from me now and I know how they are so quickly interpreted and misconstrued by the mind.
I can see how when I would first read or hear about the Ultimate, I would think I understood it. But this was all on the surface. This is all just an illusion. I had glimpses of it, but I didn't fully understand it. I will continue to understand these concepts even deeper than I do now, I do not claim to be on the level of Buddha or Jesus, because there is a deepening taking place within. Either way I have reached  place where there is nothing to say to describe it, there is no one to ask for help, there just IS.