River Gateway

MONDAY! I’m so tired physically! I’m not sure why, but I’m especially tired today. I just woke up this morning, wondering when this cycle is going to be over. When this job is going to no longer serve me. I feel and sense that it no longer does. I had so many experiences...more on that later...but I really feel as though I’ve moved on from the job but it hasn’t physically manifested yet and I’m wondering if this means I’m not doing enough to change.
I have received multiple messages of what must be done. Right now I am in a stage of transitioning. I have experienced much of this and it’s just that the physical takes a bit of time to follow. I will tell you what happened yesterday.
My Twin Flame and I took a hike in the woods. It was so amazing. The energies were so perfect, pure, smooth, and heightened. I felt like I was in a vortex of energy. It was amazing. We sat on a bridge and just watched the water pass under our feet. It was so relaxing and necessary for the cleansing. Beautiful!
Afterwards we walked further through the woods and just made our own path. Everything was in divine order, we were just existing and enjoying nature and pure being. There was a moment when we were crossing over one of the many rivers. I looked into the water and I just felt this need to pause. I thought “This river is full of energy and crossing this river is like crossing through a gateway.” I thought about how running water is super-charged and imagined myself passing through a light gateway. Then I closed my eyes and I felt myself in the presence of the many and the essence of the river and the spirit of nature. They were nature beings I suppose. I felt the tears of joy coming down my cheeks. I felt myself being lifted up and also light coming through my crown chakra. I felt this overwhelming joy. I was being enveloped by light and they told me that I was meant to have come to their forest. I was meant to be there, that it was all happening in divine timing and that I needed to have faith. They told me that I was needed there. They told me that I was “exactly where I needed to be.” They were basically just reassuring and cleansing me of any doubt or negativity. My mind was going, but I was rooted in place and I was basking in this glow. It was so powerful, I felt as though I was no longer in my body, the body felt very heavy and distant. Yet I was still in it. I experienced it in the body, and yet I would describe it as an out-of-body experience. I felt very, very empowered. I’m not sure how long it lasted, but my eyes opened by themselves and I was just told to walk and continue.
My body was moving, but I was not guiding it. I was slowly returning back, but my eyes had already opened and my body had already begun to move. I was trying to hang onto that experience and not lose it.
I think that’s why I felt the need to not go to work today. I feel as though I have moved on, but the body continues to go to work. It’s interesting. I can’t say I was resistant to it, because it’s not the same. It’s not the same kind of feeling b/c it almost feels on the surface and not how I really feel. Whereas before, I did feel that it mattered. I do not feel as though it “matters” I just notice there is an inbetween. In other words, the body is acting in the old and the spirit is acting in the new and somewhere between is the mind. It hasn’t completely followed because it is still thinking it needs to go to work, make money, etc. The inner knowing is calm and at peace and I feel very much connected to that infinite peace. Strange right?
I can’t say it’s strange either, the strange is still on the surface and does not really affect me. I can’t really describe it.
I do know that I am kind of operating from the space in between. I have not yet received guidance on what the physical manifestation of all of this will be, however I feel the change is approaching. I did not know what I will be guided to do, however I did receive this message. The Message was from the cards that BDivine read. She said that it is the time for change, that you would need to let go and to cut ties, but that all I needed to do was to cut ties from within and then this would open up the pathway. Whatever way she said this exactly, I began to cry and I knew this to be the truth and this to be the divine guidance. Once I have truly cut ties emotionally, mentally, then it can finally make way for the physical.
This cutting of ties has been going on for some time. I have already lost that roller coaster emotion based on what is happening with my job. I no longer have that. I am not invested in it. When I leave, I do not think about it or worry about it. I just have no desire. She also said, the more I think about it, the more I try to work out what is going to happen and how it is going to unfold, the more energy I am putting towards it. I started doing that this morning, trying to figure out what my next move is going to be. Don’t buy into that. You only need FAITH. That is all. You may have the FAITH that everything is going to work out in divine timing.
Now connecting back to my experience in the woods, they were there to comfort and reassure you. Everything is as it should be. You are there for that message, you are there for many more. You are connected and will always be connected.

Asking For Help

It's been a very long time since I've felt guided to post something. I've really come a long way, in the sense that I've had many awakenings since my last post. There are many others experiencing these energy shifts and having incredible experiences. Beautiful!
Well, I'd like to return with a post about asking for Help. I've been writing throughout the entire experience, and I will most likely post most of these thoughts and musings here, as I am guided to.
Anyway, back to asking for HELP. This seems so simple, but so often we forget that we have this resource at our fingertips. The infinite is there to help. You are the infinite, and so asking for help from your higher self, and from the one source, is like asking for Help from your future self who can look back and guide you through your steps.
I think often we seek Help from "teachers" and people who have given themselves this label. Some are offering valuable guidance, but I can't stress enough the importance of seeking Truth within. If you are not sure what this means for You, then ASK for HELP. I promise you, there is nothing wrong with admitting that you are not sure how to find growth and insight into the Truth. Too often we ask others for advice, we read other's experiences, we compare ourselves to those we look up to.
There is nothing wrong with this, please don't get me wrong, I'm not discounting this. Yet seeking outside yourself will only bring you so far, and you won't reach that inner peace and connect with Source without Asking from within. How do you do this? It doesn't matter where you are, just ASK, out-loud, write it down on a piece of paper, sing it out, or just close your eyes and think it. "Please help me reach my highest vibration." "Help me grow to my greatest potential." Ask with your purest, most love-filled intentions.
The honest beautiful truth is that we are the only ones experiencing this unique life, with it's own challenges and joys. So no one can really tell you what to expect in your growth. I'm strictly talking about the internal, (the one source). 
I can say honestly from experience that you do not need to change ANYthing in your outer world in order to achieve peace within. This doesn't mean you should stay in a bad situation, it simply means that if you continue to seek the outward for the inner completion, it will never happen. Don't just understand the words...experience it for yourself. The key word is Experience. 
If you are reading this, you are probably someone else who is on this path of ascension, and I honor you in your journey and that you are seeking a higher awareness. So wonderful! 
If you've been seeking for some time, you may need time to simply live. Rest in awareness, stay aware of life and what it is telling you. As you live your life, use your challenges to help you grow. AND if you get stuck, if you aren't sure how to get over something, if you have the same anxiety returning, the same fears, the same thoughts of the "old," simply ASK for help and trust that it will be received. If it's from your guides, or your higher self, it makes no difference, just ASK. Trust that LOVE, ONEness, TRUTH, is listening and will answer you, YOU will answer YOU. 
Best of LOVE!